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Name: Josh
Country: United States
State: Wisconsin
Metro: Waukesha
Birthday: 1/16/1986
Gender: Male
Interests: God, playing guitar, piano, and any other instrument I can figure out or be taught, foreign languages (esp. German, French, and Japanese! Nihongo ga suki desu yo! Deutsch ist echt heiss! Français c'est super-sexy!)
Expertise: Anything electrical I can use and any instrument I can play (or at least attempt to). I've taken 4 years of German, 1 year of French, some Spanish and Italian, and I'm teaching myself Japanese, Chinese, and Korean (or at least I'm attempting to).
Occupation: Student
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  ode wa kaizoku
AIM:  LoserRocker451
Yahoo:  legolas_is_my_hero2003
Member Since:
8/24/2005
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| So basically life still sux... my phone got turned off again... and I have no job... and school sux... if you need to get a hold of me... e-mail me @ joshsiefert@gmail.com
~Love, peace, and chicken grease~
~Josh Siefert~
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| So this is why Josh doesn't post that often... cuz nothing ever goes right...
So now my family has complete control again... I'm stuck @ home cuz 2 days ago my car overheated and we had to take it to the shop. So it was just supposed to be there until yesterday and we were gonna pick it up today and then pay them tomorrow... but that when everything got horrible...
The car was supposed to be in perfect working condition, according to the mechanic that we bought the car from 2 months ago, ans so you'd think that after 2 months there would be no problems... yeah... the friggin' timing cap is shot, so in order to fix it they'd have to take apart the entire engine, which is like 10 hrs of work and about $700 of labor cost... so yeah! How'm I doin'?! "Super! ThAnkS foR AskInG!~!" SUCKY!!! But here's what my parents and me are gonna do...
We're gonna argue that they told us the car was in perfect working condition and that they said that they had just fixed everything in the car... so there should be no problems right?! (Yes I'm being redundant... gimme a break... you would be to if you had as many problems as I have!) So we're gonna give them an ultimatum.... either they fix the car for free and give it back or they pay us back the money that we paid for the car.... cuz it's the same auto repair shop we bought the car from! So there... they can suck on it! Now for more exciting news!
I have lotz of billz... about $105 in parking tickets... on my friend Matt's car... so I need to pay them now... $77 for that ticket I got for that stupid lady hitting me... I owe my parents about $475 from car insurance and them bailing me out of debt one time... $100 for my cell phone bill which is over due... and other misc. things... but I only have about $100 cuz the bank screwed up and deposited my money a day late so I got a ton of overdraft fees... so it ate most of my check... oh well... life sux... I'm done... someone just cut out my heart with a spoon...
"Why a spoon brother? Why not a knife or an axe?"
"Cause a spoon is dull, it'll hurt more, you twit!"
I love "Robin Hood: Prince of Thieves" or as the french would say... "Robin des Bois, Prince des Voleurs"! Woot! | | |
| I hate life...
Let me go home... not my house... I hate it there... but home to God... this life sucks and I want out... if you don't care than just stop reading now... My parents are controlling my life... I'm almost 20 (January 16) and I should be able to control my life... They don't care they just want what they want when they want it... they don't care about me or anyone else those selfish concieted bastards... All they do is judge me and treat me like a moron who can't understand anything... I want to just tell them to go away and leave me alone... But when I do that it gets them more angry and bad things happen.... like last night... but no one wants to hear that nor do they care... I'm done if anyone cares and actually wants to know what's going on... call me... otherwise come over here and kill me... that'd be the biggest favor apart from a million dollars I could get right now...
STAIND
"Home"
I force myself through another day
Can't explain the way today just fell apart like everything
Right in my face
And I try to be the one
I can't accept this all because of you
I've had to walk away
From everything
I'm afraid to be alone
Afraid you'll leave me when I'm gone
I'm afraid to come back home
Another sleepless night again
Hotel rooms my only friend
And friends like that just don't add up
To anything
And I try so hard to be everything
That I should never take away from you again
'Cause I heard ya say
I'm afraid to be alone
Afraid you'll leave me when I'm gone
I'm afraid to come back home
I cannot forget
I live with regret
I cannot forget
I live with...
I'll live through this
I can't see through this
I can't do this anymore
I'm afraid to be alone
Afraid you'll leave me when I'm gone
I'm afraid to come back home
Afraid you'll leave me when I'm gone
I just wish I was back home
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| This is a touchy subject for me... so I appologize in advance for the vagueness...
Disclaimer: This is a blog in honor of Kate Jeffries (1985-2001)... only Riktopher, Kristi, Herr Pagel, and Rachel really know about her story... but this is in honor of her... So it's going to be long and sad... because this is the day that she was taken 4 years ago... I'm posting it on all my blogs like xanga and here and facebook so more people know on those sites... maybe if you're super special you can ask me some day other than today and I'll tell you the story. Sorry everyone, I'll put a happier blog up tomorrow or someday soon...
Hootie and the Blowfish
"Not Even the Trees"
Alone as I sit and watch the trees
Won’t you tell me if I scream will they bend down and listen to me
And it makes me wonder if I know the words will you come
Or will you laugh at me
Or will I run
Little boy says to me,
Where you goin’ now son
I said, I don’t know where I’m goin’ boy
I only know where I’m from
And it makes me wonder
If the stars shine when my eyes close
Or does my brothers heart cry
I don’t know
I’m a stranger in my home
Now that everybody’s gone
Someone please talk to me
Cause I feel you cry
And you’re sitting with him
And I know I’ll never see you again
Lying down in charleston under the carolina sky
You see I’m tired of feeling this pain
I’m tired of living my own little lie
And it makes me wonder
When I see you in my dreams
Does it mean anything
Are you trying to talk to me
I’m a stranger in my home
Tell me are you feeling alone
Someone tell me what to do
’cause I’m feeling strong
And I wonder how you feel
Do you realize my pain is for real
I see you in my dreams
And I wonder if you’re looking down at me
And smiling right now
I wanna know if it’s true
When he looks at me
Won’t you tell me
Does he realize he came down here
And he took you too soon
And now my days are short an my nights are long
I lay down with memories of you keep that keep me going on, going on
It makes me wonder as I sit and stare
Will I see your face again
Tell me, do you care
I’m a stranger in my home
Living life on my own
Right now I just can’t see
’cause I’m feeling weak
And my sould begins to bleed
And no one is listening to me, not even the trees
Pink Floyd
"Wish You Were Here"
So, so you think you can tell Heaven from Hell,
blue skies from pain.
Can you tell a green field from a cold steel rail?
A smile from a veil?
Do you think you can tell?
And did they get you to trade your heroes for ghosts?
Hot ashes for trees?
Hot air for a cool breeze?
Cold comfort for change?
And did you exchange a walk on part in the war for a lead role in a cage?
How I wish, how I wish you were here.
We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl, year after year,
Running over the same old ground.
What have you found? The same old fears.
Wish you were here.
Eric Clapton
"Tears in Heaven"
Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven?
Would you feel the same
If I saw you in heaven?
I must be strong and carry on
’cause I know I don’t belong here in heaven...
Would you hold my hand
If I saw you in heaven?
Would you help me stand
If I saw you in heaven?
I’ll find my way through night and day
’cause I know I just can’t stay here in heaven...
Time can bring you down, time can bend your knees
Time can break your heart, have you begging please...begging please
Beyond the door there’s peace I’m sure
And I know there’ll be no more tears in heaven...
Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven?
Would you feel the same
If I saw you in heaven?
I must be strong and carry on
’cause I know I don’t belong here in heaven... | | |
| Darn tootin' I'm bored!
I really wish that people wouldn't make plans and break them w/o telling me... I was supposed to hang out with a bunch of people.... but they never called back... man that's aggrivating.... I hate that!!! HAAAATE!!!!
So anyhey.... I really am bored... nothing to do on a friday night.... everyone bailed and it's too late to call people cause everyone's gotta get up in the morning.... dammit... oh well.... I'm really dissappointed.... and hurt... I feel like people just avoid me on purpose cause I annoy them or something... or if the do hang out with me it's just to be polite... Oh well... I guess everyone hates me... I can deal with that.... ok maybe not.... | | |
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